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^HELL YEAH!^

Heres to me!

I had such a great day. I went and done some stuff for a new and exciting experience for me and my friends. I almost remember what its like to be normal again. I havent been tired or nauseated all day! Heres to beating Lupus, ITP, Fibromyalgia, and everything else that comes my way!

Tisha & patience

One of my best friends, Tisha,  wearing her "I wear purple for my friend" shirt! I lova eww and miss Shelby too! =)

For those of you wondering, no we still havent heard a yes or no on the house. I was told yesterday we have to send some more papers in about the taxes and stuff on the house becuase the ones we sent were to old. They were just from November, I dont think they change anything on the taxes until late in the year so I dont know what the difference is. Either way, if they are wanting completely updated papers maybe they are going to accept our offer! Our closing date will still be March 6 if it all possible. So basically if its yes im going to have alittle over a week to get an inspection done, and pack a house, but I will gladly do it! =)

February

One of the greatest nights of my life ^


This month has been hard on me for memories. Ive always had blow out birthday parties, and great memories during this month. I guess its hitting me hard becuase instead of a blast im dealing with being sick and accepting that my life has changed and I cant go back.Well between that and Jason Aldeans song fly over states.
I wish I could go back and just relive moments, I wouldnt go back ive been to far now. But just those few moments....

What the pills do

Im up for the second night in a row becuase I ran out of xanax. I guess my body is addicted and so im guessing insomnia is a side effect of coming off of it.
The cymbalta and abilify can really fuck you up. Getting on them and coming off of them can mess with your mind. I had emotional issues when I went from the 30 to 60 of the cymbalta, and when I ran out of the abilify and didnt have the 600 to pay for it. I dropped back down to 30 of the cymbalta and back on the abilify and now im fine. I wish I didnt have to do any of this.

ouch

    

 The weather changed again today and my body is killing me. Especially my hand and wrist.
We heard some stuff back on the house today. We have to sign a short sale ammendum and have the seller sign too. Everyone is just working on getting their paperwork together while we are waiting on Fannie Mae to make a decision, hopefully soon and hopefully yes. Our heater quit working again yesterday, instead of heating it, it was cooling it and by the time i noticed i was getting cold it was 69 in here. Im glad it didnt happen in the middle of the night like it usually does.
     I took the kids to the doctor, both have to be on antibiotics just in case its not viral and she cant go back to school till Monday. Im ready for warm weather and no sickness. He did say he had his first 2 cases of flut this morning, and flu season is almost over! Hopefully it is going to be mild like it has been!

Meteorology!

      I finally got my ears peirced! Yes im 26 and yes ive had other peircings. I dont know what struck me but I was in Wal mart and just said, think they can peirce my ears right now? The next day I went to Ink Art for more. Ive also decided im going to go a tat, but the details will be a secret until I get it!
      Ive been feeling good except for my body hurting last night. I told Cody that the weather must be about to change becuase I was hurting and he said "yeah, its supposed to snow tonight." I should be a meterologists =) I found a rash on the back of my neck, which im guessing is causing some hair loss along with just lupus doing it. I would like to keep my hair. Damn body.

They call me red

So. Yah my hair is way red. Way way red. Think I'll stick to my other red from now on.
      I finally got my meds how I want them I think. We lowered that stupid makes you depressed when you weren't cymbalta.and I'm back on abilify which helps my energy lots. I have another sore in my mouth but I guess it will take the lupus meds awhile to effect me. I'm tired of taking pills. I don't want to be stuck on these the rest of my life.
      For the things I can't say and to the people i need to say it too...on my blog because it's public again.. I love y'all and didn't mean to hurt y'all. I guess dr weber was right when he says I was losing control of everything around and in me and that was my irrational way of gaining it back.