What the pills do

Im up for the second night in a row becuase I ran out of xanax. I guess my body is addicted and so im guessing insomnia is a side effect of coming off of it.
The cymbalta and abilify can really fuck you up. Getting on them and coming off of them can mess with your mind. I had emotional issues when I went from the 30 to 60 of the cymbalta, and when I ran out of the abilify and didnt have the 600 to pay for it. I dropped back down to 30 of the cymbalta and back on the abilify and now im fine. I wish I didnt have to do any of this.

They call me red

So. Yah my hair is way red. Way way red. Think I'll stick to my other red from now on.
      I finally got my meds how I want them I think. We lowered that stupid makes you depressed when you weren't cymbalta.and I'm back on abilify which helps my energy lots. I have another sore in my mouth but I guess it will take the lupus meds awhile to effect me. I'm tired of taking pills. I don't want to be stuck on these the rest of my life.
      For the things I can't say and to the people i need to say it too...on my blog because it's public again.. I love y'all and didn't mean to hurt y'all. I guess dr weber was right when he says I was losing control of everything around and in me and that was my irrational way of gaining it back.